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Pan ned annan (all in time)	By : ladyazmodan Category: -Multi-Age > Slash - Male/Male Views: 1650 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Pan ned annan
(secuel to No Ordinary Love)

(After Elladan dies, Elrohir tries to find a reason to stay in middle earth.
and Legolas could perhaps be that answer - but legolas fights demons of his own.)
Chapter 1 � there�s no one to catch me when I fall.

Elladan.. he was there, he reached out a hand to touch him, and he felt the warm skin under his hand. His brother turned his hand and kissed the palm. �I miss you so much� he heard his own voice say.. and his twin seemed to mirror his mood.. and looked at him with eyes that spoke of love, and grief.. �I am right here� a voice like soft velvet said.. he let his hand entwine in the dark tresses. �but yet I wake alone� he said, feeling ghostly tears run from his eyes. �you don�t have to� the soft voice said, and Elladan�s eyes filled with sadness.. �there is love for you, right by your side, you just have to reach out, my beloved� .. �NO!� he heard himself scream.. �No!.. My heart is only for you!� And suddenly Elladan had seemed to move, further away, without Elrohir feeling that he ever moved, but the hand that was caressing his brothers hair before, suddenly just stuck out in the air, like a sick branch. �go riding with the fair prince� the voice said, still sounding as he was whispered right in his ear.. �but I don�t want to.. I want to stay here with you� he said and took his hand back.. had it suddenly grown colder or was it just him?.. �we will meet again� his brother said.. but now the voice and the movement of Elladan�s lips didn�t match.. he wanted to move, wanted to grab his brother, to feel his warmth. �when?.. oh Elladan, don�t leave me..� he heard his voice say with so much pain and sorrow that it scared himself �Pan ned annan, Elrohir my love, my elven knight... Pan ned annan� the voice said.. and then he had heard another voice.. and the image of Elladan was gone, he was alone once more.. it felt like his heart would break all over again.. and he didn�t even notice that he wept. Soaking his pillow

�Elrohir, wake up.. I brought you breakfast� Legolas said softly and gently pushed Elrohir�s shoulder.. Elrohir just pulled the covers over his head and mumbled something.
Legolas sat down next to the other elf laying on the bed.
�you have to eat.. please� he said trying to reason with the half-elf.. �I don�t want to� the reply came from under the covers..
Legolas grabbed the corner of the covers and gently pulled it away, and Elrohir made no attempt to hold on to it.
�Elrohir.. please� the sinda said, and looked worried at the pale tear streaked face in the bed. �if you eat some, you and I can go riding soon..� he tried.. Elrohir turned his head and looked directly into the worried blue orbs of the other. �soon?� hope flashed the grey eyes.. �yes soon� Legolas said and smiled. Elrohir slowly sat up and reached for some fruit. Legolas sat and watched Elrohir eat some small pieces of fruit. Elrohir noticed the blue eyes rest on him, and without turning around, he just mumbled �what?� .. Legolas smiled politely, �Lord Elrond, and Arwen is worried sick about you..� Legolas dropped his gaze to his own hands in his lap.. �and so am I� he confessed.. well isn�t that just sweet!, Elrohir thought sarcastically.. but just took another bite from a piece of fruit �Elrohir please say something� Legolas whispered .. Elrohir could have laughed. But didn�t, �what do you want to hear, dear prince?� he just said, unable to keep the sarcasm out of his voice. �just *something - anything*� Legolas spat out.. �you have been laying here for too long, not uttering a word, unless it was the utmost craved for� .. Elrohir w thw the piece of fruit he was eating, away from him.. �and then you come waltzing in here, and expect me to talk to you?.. that I have had your body, does *not* make you my best friend, Legolas of Mirkwood!� he yelled.. Legolas looked utterly surprised, and Elrohir pointed at the door to the corridor �and now remove yourself from my sight!, if you please� Legolas did not know what to do.. he just stood up and felt ridiculously close to tears.. �enjoy your breakfast� he whispered and hurried out of Elrohir�s chambers.. he heard the tray hit the door when he had closed it behind him. And he could hear Elrohir�s sobs on the other side.. �I better get Lord Elrond� he said to himself.

At first Elrohir had been very mad at Legolas, but when the little golden elf had left his chambers, he had regretted his harsh words.. Legolas was just concerned, and he really *was* his only friend right now. Perhaps that is why he was so easily irritated at him?
�oh Elladan.. I don�t want to be here anymore� he sobbed.. �please come get mehe fhe fell asleep again, but this time there were no warm skin to touch, there was only the haunting images of Elladan�s vacant surprised eyes, and the blood. By the gods!, all that blood. And when Elrohir had woken with a pained scream, he found both his father and Legolas at his side.
�oh ada� he said and began to cry again, as he melted in his fathers warm arms.. �I cant do this.. I cant� he whispered against Elronds chest.. and Elrond himself had to swallow a lump before he spoke. �I think a ride outside would do you good, put on some clothes sweet Elrohir, and go look on the wonders of middle earth. May it lift your spirit my son�. Elrohir nodded vaguely, and slowly let go of his father.. �I can go with you if you want me to� Legolas said quietly.. and looked hopefully at Elrohir..
Elrohir smiled a strained smile.. �I wouldn�t have it any other way, dear Legolas..� He stopped and bit a nail. �but you have to promise, not to assault me with more items flying through the air� Legolas said cheerfully. And it had the effect he had wanted, for Elrohir couldn�t restrain his amusement.. �promise.. I cant lift a horse anyway� he said with a ghost of a smile on his lips.

Legolas went through the drawer to find some suitable clothes ElroElrohir to ride in.. and when he finally found some, he triumphant turned to Elrohir and tossed it on the bed.. Elrohir paled and picked up the light blue tunic.. �this is Elladan�s� he whispered. /were Elladan�s/ Legolas almost said. But just hurried to the bed to take back the tunic, and find another in its place.. But Elrohir held on to his brothers tunic.. �I would like to wear that�
Legolas let go of the tunic, and tried not to look, as Elrohir gently caressed his own cheek with the fabric..

/still smells of you/

He let go of the tunic, and lay it on the bed, almost like was it a treasure. Got up and changed his clothes, while Legolas looked out of the window.. �clouds are gathering, I am not sure it would be wise to ride now� he said in a sad voice..
Elrohir stood at the mirror and braided his tangled hair, and apparently hadn�t heard what Legolas said �lets go� he suddenly said and tried to look cheerful, in which he failed miserably.. his expression just made him look absurdly young and lost.
�yes, lets go� Legolas said and smiled.. maybe this weren�t such a good idea after all he thought as he opened the door to the corridor. And followed Elladan towards the stables

Elrohir eyed the horse that Elladan had rode out on, and went over to it, and caressed its head.. the horse answered him with nudge of her nose.. �A Tarien..� he whispered and kissed her on her soft nose. �I will take you riding, Tarien.. do not worry�
Legolas turned around �Elrohir, don�t!� he exclaimed desperately. Elrohir turned around and looked at Legolas, with the chilliest stare Legolas had ever seen from him. �I WILL take this horse riding, it needs the exercise, she have been idle for too long� he hissed.. Legolas looked pained �but wouldn�t you prefer your own horse?� .. �NO! I will ride this horse or no horse!� Elrohir yelled.. Legolas looked at the floor in defeat. �as you wish.. should I take your horse then, for it have been idle too� Elrohir moved into the both, and padded the mare.. �do as you wish� he mumbled, as he prepared the horse. Legolas shook his head and went over to the larger dark stallion, that was Elrohir�s. �come Fanuilos. Time to stretch your legs� he whispered.. there had been a time when they would have giggled at this.. Elrohir�s lack of skill in naming his horse. His argument had always just been that he had found it beautiful, but to name a large dark stallion, after Elbereth herself was just ridiculous. The horse looked past Legolas, at his master. But his master had no eyes for it.. �ai, you indeed carried a heavy burden my friend� Legolas whispered to the horse .
Elrohir had thought it would have been relaxing, soothing. To be amongst the horses, and even enjoyable to ride with Legolas. But he found himself fighting tears instead. As he swung himself on the back of Elladans horse, he wondered if he would ever be able to get up on the back of his own horse once more. For Fanuilos had carried him and Elladan back to Imladris.
/go riding with the fair prince/
He had not noticed that he was lost in thoughts until he heard Legolas yell for him.. �we better go now Elrohir� Elrohir nodded and spurred his horse, to ride out of the stables.

Elvis trans;
pan ned annan = All in time
Elrohir = elven knight
A Tarien = oh prinsess
Fanuilos = everwhite ref- Elbereth

Chapter 2 - lay with me - lie to me (tell me you love me, say I'm the only one)

Legolas followed Elrohir where he would feel it in his heart to go. Legolas stared up in the now grey sky.. "we should return soon Elrohir" he said softly.. but his words was overpowered by the roar sudden thunder, and a lightening split the sky.. this made Elrohir wake up, and quickly turn his head, he looked pale and frightened.. "Legolas.. are you there?" he said in a strained voice, almost if he did not expect a answer. "yes, I am here Elrohir, But I would rather be indoor.. we will be soaked in a little while" Legolas soft voice said.. "follow me" Elrohir said, his voice trembled and his heart beat like a rabbits. Legolas noticed Elrohir's nervousness and rode up on his side, he lay his hand on the half-elfs shoulder.. "Elrohir" he said and squeezed Elrohir's shoulder lightly.. but Elrohir seemed lost in his own thoughts, and just rode determinedly towards a cling of trees..

Elrohir had been silent, while they had fastened the horses, and sat down underneath a big tree that reached all the way down to the ground with its branches.. Legolas leaned up against the trunk, and sighed.. "we will be dry from the storm here" when he got no answer, he turned and looked at Elrohir.. the half-elfs eyes was wide open in sheer terror, and his entire frame was shaking. "Elrohir?" Legolas asked and reached out for the other elf..
Elrohir flinched at Legolas touch, but looked at the fair haired elf. "hold me" he whispered.
Legolas moved to his side and wrapped his arms around Elrohir.. "don't be afraid my love" he whispered. Elrohir froze.. /my love?/ no!. This is too soon.. but Elladan said ride with the prince, did he know?.. Elrohir's big frightened eyed locked themselves with Legolas large blue orbs.. "since when?" he whispered.. Legolas raised a eyebrow.. "what are you talking about Elrohir?" now Elrohir looked puzzled "you called me your love, did you not?" he said softly.. just before another roar of thunder drowned his voice.. Legolas looked away "come lets try and get some rest" Legolas guided Elrohir to lay down, without letting him go. Elrohir lay down and Legolas spooned up behind him, wrapping his cloak around the trembling elf in front of him.. the Sinda buried his face in the dark wet tresses, and rested his lips softly of Elrohir's neck.

Elrohir could feel the soft lips resting on his neck, and the little blows of warm breath it made on his cold wet skin.. it gave him Goosebumps.. and he smiled. If felt good to have someone here. And of pure reflex he entwined his fingers with the other elfs, resting both their hands on his chest, as if Legolas was a cover he could wrap around him.. feeling the heartbeat of Legolas, involuntarmademade Elrohir hold his hand tighter.. the Sinda's heart beat like a frightened rabbits..

/I am not ready... Why did you tell me to come here my love?/

the thoughts ran through Elrohir's head, until he felt that the hand in his relaxed some, and the breath in his neck had become less shallow, indicating that Legolas had fallen asleep.. the feeling of having someone sleeping behind him, made Elrohir doze off too..
His dreams was filled with darkness, and once more he found himself waking from the sound of battle between the sounds of the storm.. once again he picked up a sword and ran towards the group he could see in the horizon.. and once again he saw Elladan go down on his knees, only to get hit by another blow from a attacking orc, and then finally fall over and hit the ground.. Elrohir fought and fought, for what seemed eternity.. and when the last orc was dead, he ran to the elf on the ground, but when the dreaded moment came, and he rolled Elladan over.. it was not Elladan, the dead eyes was not grey, they were once blue as the sky.. and the hair was not black, but golden, now all clustered with mud.

Elrohir woke with a gasp.. /Legolas!/ and then he noticed that the warmth behind him was gone.. Elrohir panicked and he sat up, he could still hear the storm over their heads.. "Legolas!" he screamed with a frightened and thin voice.. "L-legolas!".. and just when he was about to crawl out into the storm, a branch was pushed aside and Legolas hurried inside in the little nature made hideaway.. and without thought Elrohir grabbed the blonde and clung to him, as for dear life.. "do n-not ever d-do that again, I t-thought I l-lost you, j-just like.." Elrohir's voice failed, and his body began to shake as desperate sobs was torn from his lips.. "oh Elrohir, I will never leave you, Never" Legolas whispered and kissed Elrohir's cheek.
Elrohir rested his head on Legolas' shoulder. "I am l-lonely, s-so lonely.. I a-am left b-behind" Elrohir's tears wet Legolas' neck, and Legolas himself felt tears run from his eyes.. "you don't have to be lonely Elrohir"

/ there is love for you, right by your side, you just have to reach out, my beloved/

Elladan's voice sounded in Elrohir's ears.. Elrohir could not deny it felt good to have strong arms wrapped around him, but he somehow felt like he was not doing Elladan justice..
Legolas swallowed a lump, and whispered in a thick voice, knowing he sealed his own doom, with these words "I will stay, if you wish me to.. I-i Love y-you".. Elrohir lifted his head, and looked at Legolas tear streaked face, he wanted to say something, but he couldn't, instead he reached a trembling hand up to Legolas soft cheek, and touched him tenderly.
"I will fill your heart, bring you light where you have non, love you when all hope seems to have forsaken these lands" Legolas whispered with a trembling voice. Elrohir looked directly into Legolas blue orbs, and saw only love there.. "you would do all that for me?" Elrohir asked a little surprised "why?, you know my heart aces for someone else"... Legolas smiled a faint smile "because I love you" he said and looked away..
Elrohir lifted Legolas head, with a hand under his chin.. "You hold a special place in my heart, and are very dear to me, do not think your words are ill spend"
/but you are not Elladan/
Legolas leaned over and planted a soft kiss on Elrohir's lips.. it was a different kiss than any other kiss they had ever shared, it was sad, but sweet.. until it grew deeper and desperate... Legolas heart sang with joy, from the touches from his beloved, But Elrohir's heart darkened with sorrow and desperation.
/Forgive me Elladan, but I am so lonely/
he could feel the Sinda tremble under his hands.. Elrohir closed his eyes, feeling the bodyheat, and hearing the breaths from Legolas beginning to become more rapid. But the face behind his closed eyelids was not the one of the fair haired elf..

TBC

(no beta, all faults is mine - and DONT tell me about them :P )
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