Sigilion's Story
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Adult ++
Chapters:
11
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1,388
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Chapter 5
Title: Sigilion's Story chapter 5
Type: FPS
Author: Lady Mírfain (ladymirfain@earthlink.net)
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: OMC/OMC
Warnings: angst
Disclaimer: The characters you recognize belong to Tolkien. I am just borrowing them to play with. I promise to return them with smiles on their faces.
Beta: Tuxedo Elf
Notes: This is the story of one of my OMC's. It comes mainly from role play situations. I own Sigilion and Faerfaen. Tuxedo Elf owns Carthôlion and Andernilion. Punisher8209 owns punisher. Mistress Mauburz is the property of the Magic Rat and Master Erestor. Tefys is the property of Luthien. Uli belongs to Ford of Bruinen. Other characters will be listed as they appear.
Summary: Sigilion tells his story.
Chr 5 r 5
I feel as if I am floating on air. Last night was more perfect than I could ever have imagined. I look back and see what I missed then and my heart cries out in joy. My precious love, the joy of my heart, had been shocked that I asked him to take me. He would have given me his all if I had but asked last night. He trusts me! Never has a lover offered to let me take him. It was never offered and I did not ask. I felt it was not my place. Yet last eve, those were not my thoughts. I needed him to fill me and I asked for this. He gave me the most precious of gifts and yet, he took me. Finally, my mind has grasped that Carthôlion is not like the others. It has finally accepted what my heart has known, that Carthôlion loves me as I love him.
Yet fear still grips my heart. This is not, as you may assume, because I fear he will turn me away. He settled my fears about that last eve. Nay, my fears are of losing him to Mandos. I do not know why this fear is suddenly gripping me. Does it really matter why? It allows me to understand our dear daughter and her fears, and to me, this is the most important thing. It would be so to my beloved as well, if I had the courage to tell him. I do not withhold this from him out of fear of his wrath. I could never fear him. Instead, I fear causing him pain. He has enough to deal with comforting our daughter. I do not need him to have to comfort me as well. I draw strength from his strength and that is enough.
Our dear friend, Andernilion, understands my fears and has done much to comfort me. I go to him for a listening ear that truly grasps the worry in my heart for Carthôlion. I know that Andernilion worries as I do. Yet, he is stronger and braver than I am. He does not let his fears show. Tonight, I thanked him for his friendship, and told him he would always have a home in Imladris. I know that my Lord Elrond would echo my invitation, and so had no reservations in offering it. Andernilion is as a brother to Carthôlion and I, and I am grateful for this.
I was close to my own brother up until that day. Long have I felt the hole in my life that was left by his betrayal. Andernilion has filled that hole and I thank him for this with all my heart, yet know not how to tell him. I would have to open up about what had happened so very long ago, and I could not bear to expose my shame. I will tell Carthôlion. Letting him read my most secret writings is my way of telling him. I trust him. I trust that he will not laugh and call me a fool. He loves me as I love him and I would never do this to him. I feel safe with Carthôlion and now realize that I have someone I can tell anything.
I have not yet introduced Carthôlion and Faerfaen to my family and I must do so. My mother will find immense joy in Faerfaen. has has long despaired of ever having a grandchild to hold in her arms. She had only two children, and we both prefer our own gender. Never has she said anything about this by word or look, yet I know her. Her arms ache to hold an elfling once again. I know she will adore both my loves. How could she not? They are precious to me and that will be enough for her.
My father has always felt that my brother and I have betrayed him by who we love. I fear his reaction, yet pray that Faerfaen will soften his heart. I can only pray to the Valar that he will accept Carthôlion. That he will see the love between us and rejoice at my happiness. I will say that my father was my strongest support when my brother betrayed me. My father seemed to feel that my brother had betrayed him as well by taking the one that I loved. Yet, I feel I owe my brother thanks. If he had not done what he did, I would be bound and would not have experienced the glorious love of my beloved and my daughter. Mayhap, with Carthôlion at my side, I can tell him this. I fear this meeting, however, for my first love was the youngest of the twin sons of Elrond.
Does this shock you, that Elrohir was my first love? I think that Lord Elrond has always felt responsible for what happened and has treated me with kindness. I cannot lay blame on Elrohir for what happened, however, for my brother had been training in Mirkwood for many years and Elrohir knew him not. I should have seen the attraction between them when my brother returned home, yet my own feelings blinded me and I did not. Elladan tried to comfort me. He offered friendship that I gladly accepted, yet his friendship was painful. Every time I look at Elladan, I see his brother in him, and I feel pain. Elladan understands though, and I am grateful for this.
Type: FPS
Author: Lady Mírfain (ladymirfain@earthlink.net)
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: OMC/OMC
Warnings: angst
Disclaimer: The characters you recognize belong to Tolkien. I am just borrowing them to play with. I promise to return them with smiles on their faces.
Beta: Tuxedo Elf
Notes: This is the story of one of my OMC's. It comes mainly from role play situations. I own Sigilion and Faerfaen. Tuxedo Elf owns Carthôlion and Andernilion. Punisher8209 owns punisher. Mistress Mauburz is the property of the Magic Rat and Master Erestor. Tefys is the property of Luthien. Uli belongs to Ford of Bruinen. Other characters will be listed as they appear.
Summary: Sigilion tells his story.
Chr 5 r 5
I feel as if I am floating on air. Last night was more perfect than I could ever have imagined. I look back and see what I missed then and my heart cries out in joy. My precious love, the joy of my heart, had been shocked that I asked him to take me. He would have given me his all if I had but asked last night. He trusts me! Never has a lover offered to let me take him. It was never offered and I did not ask. I felt it was not my place. Yet last eve, those were not my thoughts. I needed him to fill me and I asked for this. He gave me the most precious of gifts and yet, he took me. Finally, my mind has grasped that Carthôlion is not like the others. It has finally accepted what my heart has known, that Carthôlion loves me as I love him.
Yet fear still grips my heart. This is not, as you may assume, because I fear he will turn me away. He settled my fears about that last eve. Nay, my fears are of losing him to Mandos. I do not know why this fear is suddenly gripping me. Does it really matter why? It allows me to understand our dear daughter and her fears, and to me, this is the most important thing. It would be so to my beloved as well, if I had the courage to tell him. I do not withhold this from him out of fear of his wrath. I could never fear him. Instead, I fear causing him pain. He has enough to deal with comforting our daughter. I do not need him to have to comfort me as well. I draw strength from his strength and that is enough.
Our dear friend, Andernilion, understands my fears and has done much to comfort me. I go to him for a listening ear that truly grasps the worry in my heart for Carthôlion. I know that Andernilion worries as I do. Yet, he is stronger and braver than I am. He does not let his fears show. Tonight, I thanked him for his friendship, and told him he would always have a home in Imladris. I know that my Lord Elrond would echo my invitation, and so had no reservations in offering it. Andernilion is as a brother to Carthôlion and I, and I am grateful for this.
I was close to my own brother up until that day. Long have I felt the hole in my life that was left by his betrayal. Andernilion has filled that hole and I thank him for this with all my heart, yet know not how to tell him. I would have to open up about what had happened so very long ago, and I could not bear to expose my shame. I will tell Carthôlion. Letting him read my most secret writings is my way of telling him. I trust him. I trust that he will not laugh and call me a fool. He loves me as I love him and I would never do this to him. I feel safe with Carthôlion and now realize that I have someone I can tell anything.
I have not yet introduced Carthôlion and Faerfaen to my family and I must do so. My mother will find immense joy in Faerfaen. has has long despaired of ever having a grandchild to hold in her arms. She had only two children, and we both prefer our own gender. Never has she said anything about this by word or look, yet I know her. Her arms ache to hold an elfling once again. I know she will adore both my loves. How could she not? They are precious to me and that will be enough for her.
My father has always felt that my brother and I have betrayed him by who we love. I fear his reaction, yet pray that Faerfaen will soften his heart. I can only pray to the Valar that he will accept Carthôlion. That he will see the love between us and rejoice at my happiness. I will say that my father was my strongest support when my brother betrayed me. My father seemed to feel that my brother had betrayed him as well by taking the one that I loved. Yet, I feel I owe my brother thanks. If he had not done what he did, I would be bound and would not have experienced the glorious love of my beloved and my daughter. Mayhap, with Carthôlion at my side, I can tell him this. I fear this meeting, however, for my first love was the youngest of the twin sons of Elrond.
Does this shock you, that Elrohir was my first love? I think that Lord Elrond has always felt responsible for what happened and has treated me with kindness. I cannot lay blame on Elrohir for what happened, however, for my brother had been training in Mirkwood for many years and Elrohir knew him not. I should have seen the attraction between them when my brother returned home, yet my own feelings blinded me and I did not. Elladan tried to comfort me. He offered friendship that I gladly accepted, yet his friendship was painful. Every time I look at Elladan, I see his brother in him, and I feel pain. Elladan understands though, and I am grateful for this.